cliche

"you've been my past, you surely are my present, now will you be my future?"
I used to think about this line a lot. I'm sure it can apply to most people. But for me, it's only solely applying to you. The one who had me okay with letting you take ahold of my heart as if as long as it belonged to you.. it was okay. I had myself convinced that by all god i would never want a "boyfriend" or "serious relationship" whatever you wanna call it. I'm not the type to go for that bull shit. But when i started to get to know you, that all changed.

Cliche?
Yea, Probably. but falling more and more in love with someone as each day goes by, how can that not be a cliche? It surely, exists, and you've brought it upon myself, and opened my eyes to it too.
Every kiss, every touch. Can i just spend a lifetime with you and let the rest fall into place?

It's a shame my feelings were more than yours. Distance is what you make it. And by all means, you made it the fucking highlight of it all. and the reason for this fall. Well, i'm here to tell you, I understand.

The tides were crashing upon my heart, and for every moment you would second guess yourself, or us... it would erode every little bit of my heart more and more. And the day that my heart would just disappear from the outcome of this, just all out of love for you, may be now.
Patience, used to be my life with you, but now, i noticed that word has been taken over and replaced by "used" and me being just "a toy". That's all I was. There's a difference between those two... "patience" and being "used" and i was over casted by an unexplainable amount of feelings towards you, I was totally blinded. Not a second went by that i didn't think about you..............
not one.

But it's time i've stepped back from all these mixed feelings and confusion and notice that it's not love thats putting me on this emotional roller coaster. But the exact opposite. You got me good. Right where it hurts, center of my heart, where i promised myself i would never let anyone to. you can call it over-reacting, but unlike you, every second i spent with you no matter where, or how it happened, it made me the happiest girl on earth because i was with you, always.

But go have your fun. Because all i mean when i say "if there was a heart beat past being head over heels with someone, then boy, you've got mine racing" is in the past

So you were in my past, you've faded as my present. and as for the future, well, you can figure that out for yourself.
........ without me.